Frustration

[tabatha]

It feels like I'm losing my freaking mind. I've had back issues since my senior year in high school, a decade ago. At first I though nothing of the sharp pains in my right side. Then a few years later it happened again. I'm like okay, let's see what this is all about. They found nothing. The third time I couldn't ignore the pain. I had to lift up my leg with my hands in order to dress myself. At the time they said it was a compressed disc. Meds and epidurals later it eased. But now I found out a year ago it's herniated. I have nerves pressed. And now my neck is bothering me. I have numbess on my face, arm, and now chest. I'm so frustrated with everything! I did the therapy. My meds won't mix, I'm in pain all the time, and now I have to get epidruals in my neck. Which I dread. But it's not going to do any good. I mean, my lumbar, my neck. My mid back. If they treat one area, then another acts up. I'm losing faith in myself and the doctors, I know they are trying, but I'm pretty sick of it by now. Sorry, I had to rant somewhere. I have no idea what to do. I'm going to the doc on Monday to see what she says. But I'm not expecting anything different. Just the same thing I've head before.

[susie]

Tabby, I'm so sorry! I had a back injury this summer (which is mostly resolved) so I do have some inkling of what you're going through. I can't imagine never having relief from that pain.

Does it seem that surgery is in your future? Hang in there, sweetie, and keep pursuing relief. I feel for you.

[tabatha]

They don't want to do surgery because of my age. Lame excuse. As I grow older it's going to get worse, but what can I do? I need more therapy, and it needs to be for my arms/shoulders and mid to upper back. I get spasms, and my muscles are pretty weak and have to make up for it in my shoulders and back. Arg. It takes so long for it to work. It's been this way for so long I begin to wonder if it will get better. It's super hard for me to stay positive. Just my nature.

Thanks Susie.