Post by tabatha on Sept 12, 2008 20:17:08 GMT -5
Thanks mtnme, I forgot about dial up. 
It's been so long since I had that kind of service. If it comes to that, I may do it. I just hope I find a local number, if not, then I'll be on in minutes at a time. Don't want to run up the bill. But so far, they said we are fine.
I'm still stressed and disgusted with things. I've sacrifced so much, and just when I think I may have something for myself, something comes up and threatens it. I want to be selfish in life for once, not so much so that it hurts others, but enough so I won't be so hard on myself, and enough so others won't think they can use me like they have before.
I've gotten to the point that I want to be rid of everything, material wise. I resent what I have because it feels like it's holding me back. I just want to be on my own, and I have to sacrifice so much to get there, so be it. I thought I was free of the burden, but the burden keeps asking for more, and they are willing to give, but I'm not... I've held it in for so long, that I can't hold it any longer.
It's been so long since I had that kind of service. If it comes to that, I may do it. I just hope I find a local number, if not, then I'll be on in minutes at a time. Don't want to run up the bill. But so far, they said we are fine. I'm still stressed and disgusted with things. I've sacrifced so much, and just when I think I may have something for myself, something comes up and threatens it. I want to be selfish in life for once, not so much so that it hurts others, but enough so I won't be so hard on myself, and enough so others won't think they can use me like they have before.
I've gotten to the point that I want to be rid of everything, material wise. I resent what I have because it feels like it's holding me back. I just want to be on my own, and I have to sacrifice so much to get there, so be it. I thought I was free of the burden, but the burden keeps asking for more, and they are willing to give, but I'm not... I've held it in for so long, that I can't hold it any longer.
