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Post by apolosangel8907 on Jun 11, 2008 21:15:21 GMT -5
do you ever feel like you just aren't good enough?
Over the past year I have lost 50 lbs...should feel amazing right? Some days I do...but other days I feel like it isn't enough. Some days I feel somewhat pretty, other days I feel like horsecrap is better looking than I am.
I feel like nothing I do will ever be good enough. I'll never be pretty enough to get the type of guy I want...I'll never be smart enough, never be fit enough, never be enough. Anyone else feel this way?
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Post by tabatha on Jun 11, 2008 21:57:42 GMT -5
Are you kidding? I beat myself up mentally everyday. I view myself as 'plain' or 'average' and that's the best I can come up with. I had an eating disorder, and will never get over it. But it was a control thing. But I used to be stick thin, and still be unhappy. I gained some weight, and feel better about that. So being thinner will not make you happy. As long as you're healthy and active then that's even better. I have no motivation for myself.  You're not alone. We women are crazy like that. You looked happy in your photo, and you looked confident, and that's what makes you shine. I lack the confidence and it shows. Besides, you're pretty and fine the way you are. Corny enough for you? |
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Post by wildfire on Jun 11, 2008 22:50:46 GMT -5
This one's for you all! It's so true...so please believe that about yourselves...   My Declaration of Self-Esteem
by Virginia Satir
I AM ME
In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me
Everything that comes out of me is authentically me
Because I alone chose it - I own everything about me
My body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions,
Whether they be to others or to myself - I own my fanatasies,
My dreams, my hopes, my fears - I own all my triumphs and
Successes, all my failures and mistakes Because I own all of
Me, I can become intimately acquainted with me - by so doing
I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts - I know
There are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other
Aspects that I do not know - but as long as I am
Friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously
And hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles
And for ways to find out more about me - However I
Look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever
I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically
Me - If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought
And felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is
Unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that
Which I discarded - I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do
I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be
Productive to make sense and order out of the world of
People and things outside of me - I own me, and
therefore I can engineer me - I am me and
I AM OKAY |
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Post by jennaceeta25 on Jun 11, 2008 22:59:34 GMT -5
I know what you mean, Apoloangel! I fight about it everyday. I hate my hair, my face, my everything. It's like the devil to a women, their looks. I say be yourself and if some guy doesn't like that then they're not good for you.  And keep healthy, and that's all that matters. You'll get that special someone and he'll love you no matter what you look like or your mood swings. And I like your poem, Wildfire! Thanks for that!  |
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Post by A.O.Freak on Jun 11, 2008 23:02:14 GMT -5
Jenna your so such a beautiful person....dont talk like that |
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Post by jennaceeta25 on Jun 11, 2008 23:04:22 GMT -5
Jenna your so such a beautiful person....dont talk like that thanks, AOfreak. |
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Post by mellie on Jun 11, 2008 23:10:54 GMT -5
Jacy, don't worry about guys because when you least expect it, that love that you're looking for will show up. Jenna's right that the guy that falls for you will love you as you are, so be yourself.
Lovely poem Wildfire, and those word ring so true.
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Post by mtnme on Jun 11, 2008 23:39:08 GMT -5
The angst of the young.... and I do truly remember how you feel. I looked in the mirror, and all I saw was everything I wasn't. Everything you stated Apolosangel. Now I look back on those pictures and say "WHAT THE HE!! WAS I THINKING ? I was a babe! But of course, I never saw that. Great poem wildfire. I'll add my favorite from Little Women. (I've posted it before somewhere) "If you feel your value lies in being merely decorative, I fear you will come to believe that is all you really are. Time erodes all such beauty. What it cannot erode is the wonderful workings of your mind. Your Kindness, Your Humor and Your Moral Courage. That is what I cherish so in you." Do realize that a guy who wants you for your looks only wants a trophy. You're not a person, you're a thing-you'll get treated accordingly. I have friends married to men like that. Their marriages suck. Trust me, you don't want a guy like that. He isn't capable of loving you, he's only in love with himself. Your only reason for existance is how you reflect on him. and congrats on losing 50 lbs! that is NO easy feat. (I'm still trying!) Congratulate yourself! That was quite an accomplishment. ;D But I do know how you feel. It really must be a woman's fate that some days you just want an 'extreme makeover!" LOL. |
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Post by apolosangel8907 on Jun 12, 2008 20:33:44 GMT -5
thanks you guys....I feel a little better today....I guess I am just down because there is this guy that I really like and I know that I won't ever be able to be with him. Not only is he a little older than me, but there are also a few other factors that will prevent us from ever being together. |
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Post by A.O.Freak on Jun 12, 2008 21:18:04 GMT -5
I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
May be I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
I heard her face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in May
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn't make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch may falling star
I wish i didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
Oh my soul is dying, it's crying
I'm trying to understand
Please help me
I love the lyrics to this song,so i had to post
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Post by jennaceeta25 on Jun 12, 2008 21:21:18 GMT -5
thanks you guys....I feel a little better today....I guess I am just down because there is this guy that I really like and I know that I won't ever be able to be with him. Not only is he a little older than me, but there are also a few other factors that will prevent us from ever being together. I'm so sorry, Apolosangel. I say age is just a number. But that's just me. AOfreak, I love that song. Who sang it? Thanks. |
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Post by apolosangel8907 on Jun 12, 2008 21:30:47 GMT -5
well this day is just shaping up great...what next...horsecrap thrown in my face? I just got this text from this guy that I had been flirting with for the last like 10 months...he was in one of my classes and we would see each other around campus and flirt and stuff...all it said was "hey babe...it was fun and all but I am married"
WHAT THE HELL...HE HAS BEEN FLIRTING WITH ME ALL THIS TIME AND HE IS MARRIED!!!!!!!!
I need a bridge to go jump off. Seriously! What the hell....I finally get the nerve to ask him out (and I know he was interested) and he drops this bomb on me?
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Post by jennaceeta25 on Jun 12, 2008 21:35:11 GMT -5
Are you kidding?! I'm about ready to flippin kick that boy! What is these mens problems.  You shouldn't be going through this. What a gerk. Did you see a ring wedding ring on his finger?  |
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Post by apolosangel8907 on Jun 12, 2008 21:41:50 GMT -5
no...but he worked in a chemical plant so he couldn't wear it anyway. This guy was AMAZING....so increddibly hot....nice (or so I thought) funny, a former Texas Tech football player (I am a HUGE football fan) and he had a few tattoo's which I am a sucker for...sure he was like 6 years older than me, but it didn't bother him, so why should it bother me? We could sit and talk football or whatever for hours...I would help him with his homework when we were in class together....we would get lunch together all the time.....I hate this! And he wasn't even the guy that I was talking about before!
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Post by jennaceeta25 on Jun 12, 2008 21:47:14 GMT -5
awh. I love tattoo men too. But that's sad, I'm sorry. Have you known him a long time? |
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You're not alone. We women are crazy like that. You looked happy in your photo, and you looked confident, and that's what makes you shine. I lack the confidence and it shows.
And keep healthy, and that's all that matters. You'll get that special someone and he'll love you no matter what you look like or your mood swings. 
